This series initially started as something else, but after completing two of the intended nine paintings, I was staring at the half-done third piece and thought about how much I did not want to keep going. Sometimes I have ideas for paintings and whatever the cause might be, there are times when artworks simply do not work out. When I spend time and art materials creating a piece, it is ultimately to some degree painful to have to tear it apart. As an artist, there are often times when I find myself at a crossroads: even though I have my doubts about the piece or series, do I push through and continue or do I scrap it and start over? That is the ultimate decision. Regardless of the path I choose to take, I have already invested a part of myself in that piece.
This painting series is comprised of self portraits in which I wear different glasses. When I started this series the need for change was overwhelming. I needed to change my idea, I needed to change my approach, and I needed to change my references. It is hard to let go. It is hard to look at something you're trying to create and think, "this sucks." It is hard to tear up the art and start over. To move on to bigger and better things, you have to listen to your gut shouting at you, "this is not working," and you have to move on. Tear up the papers, sand down the painting, destroy the sculpture, and move on. Allowing the wood to be visible was a deliberate choice as there is always an aspect of vulnerability and transparency in self portraiture. This series is about growth, change, and the strength and courage that come along with having to start over.